Christmas this year was incredible. I got to spend time with family, but most importantly, with my husband. I woke up Christmas morning to my dead but glowing tree and laying next to Isaac for the first time in a long time. Yay!
Some highlights of Christmas day...Isaac and I have not gotten each other Christmas gifts in a few years. So this year we decided to just fill each other's stockings. I gave him a few odds and ends that he needs for travelling for work (Axe body spray, travel size toiletries, etc) and a Bible. Very practical, all things he needs. He really surprised me this year. There is a marriage retreat I have wanted to go to with him for 3 years now, and he bought us tickets to the retreat. It is at our favorite Las Vegas hotel, The Red Rock Resort. We get to spend three days and two nights together alone, learning about God's design for marriage and growing in our love for each other. How exciting! Thanks babe. :)We ate lots of yummy food, including what I call Gamish Corn Hens (aka Cornish Game Hens)and my sister-in-law's delicious Oreo balls. Ahh...
Right now, Phoenix and I are in our La Quinta hotel room in Visalia, California. We made the seven hour drive yesterday, and upon arrival, realized we were stuck in a room half the size of what we were promised. This would normally be no big deal, but Phoenix and I will be living in this hotel for the next 5 days and we need space or we will go crazy! Isaac went straight down to the check-in desk and worked it all out. He came back up with a new key to a much more comfortable room. I am not an assertive person and would just as soon stay in the smaller, cramped room before I make a fuss. But that is why God gave me Isaac. He has the guts and heart to take care of his family and get us the room we need to stay sane during this trip. I love him for that. It is in these moments that I literally thank the Lord for giving me such an honest husband that doesn't get pushed around, like I would.
I am really looking forward to these next few days. Isaac will be at Costco working most of the time, but I get the luxury of seeing him in the morning and spending each night with him. That is all I could ask for. I brought all the necessities- tons of toys, Phoenix's portable bed, books and movies to keep us busy during the day while Isaac is gone. Isaac went last night at 10:00 PM to buy us groceries- bless him! And also, our new room's fridge was not working, so he unplugged it, carried the awkward thing over to the room we were in at first, and switched it with that fridge, which is much colder. Thank goodness for men like Isaac who might be a little rough on the edges, but also take good care of the ones they love. Can I get a shout out from all you women whose husbands are wonderful? :)
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Winter
Today while I was driving, I came to this conclusion: I am in the Winter season of my life. Life does have seasons. I am experiencing the cold, harsh, yet essential, season of Winter. It is not just about the weather. It is the Winter of my soul.
In the Winter, everything changes. It all goes dormant. The flowers wilt and fade, the grass dies, the leaves are long gone. There is not much green left, and everything is covered in a blanket of emptiness and cold. In some places it snows and freezes. I am very aware of the Winter characteristics my life has taken on. The long stretches of time spent alone, without my husband to spend time with. The many nights slept next to nobody, and cuddled up next to nothing. The dozens of moments I desire to share with Isaac, such as when Phoenix says a new word, but he is not here to experience things with me. Winter has made its company here. It is in the biting air outside, first thing in the morning. It is in the empty space of my home late at night. It is in my heart when I ache to be held in Isaac's arms.
I was encouraged, and smiled to myself, when I remembered what happens after Winter is over: Spring. Springtime, when the trees come to life again, and the flowers bloom in an array of colors, and the sky looks bluer and the air smells sweeter and the world is fresh and new again. Springtime, when we celebrate new life, and welcome good things back again. When the cold of Winter is long forgotten and the warmth of Spring is welcomed home.
My Spring is coming. I pray that the Lord will bring it to me now, but I know in my heart that these things cannot be rushed. Because without Winter, how could I appreciate the beauty of Spring? Without Winter, how could I have the brightness to look forward to? And without Winter, how could I know the things I am meant to learn?
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven...God has made everything beautful in its time." Ecclesiastes 3:1,11
In the Winter, everything changes. It all goes dormant. The flowers wilt and fade, the grass dies, the leaves are long gone. There is not much green left, and everything is covered in a blanket of emptiness and cold. In some places it snows and freezes. I am very aware of the Winter characteristics my life has taken on. The long stretches of time spent alone, without my husband to spend time with. The many nights slept next to nobody, and cuddled up next to nothing. The dozens of moments I desire to share with Isaac, such as when Phoenix says a new word, but he is not here to experience things with me. Winter has made its company here. It is in the biting air outside, first thing in the morning. It is in the empty space of my home late at night. It is in my heart when I ache to be held in Isaac's arms.
I was encouraged, and smiled to myself, when I remembered what happens after Winter is over: Spring. Springtime, when the trees come to life again, and the flowers bloom in an array of colors, and the sky looks bluer and the air smells sweeter and the world is fresh and new again. Springtime, when we celebrate new life, and welcome good things back again. When the cold of Winter is long forgotten and the warmth of Spring is welcomed home.
My Spring is coming. I pray that the Lord will bring it to me now, but I know in my heart that these things cannot be rushed. Because without Winter, how could I appreciate the beauty of Spring? Without Winter, how could I have the brightness to look forward to? And without Winter, how could I know the things I am meant to learn?
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven...God has made everything beautful in its time." Ecclesiastes 3:1,11
Monday, December 14, 2009
Luke Chapter 2
In my Bible reading yesterday, I turned to the gospels to read the Christmas story. I settled on reading Luke Chapter 2, since it is the most complete account of the birth of Christ with the most detail (I am a details kind of person). One verse in particular stuck out to me: "Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart." People in Bethlehem were a hustle and bustle, full of wonder at the birth of Christ and spreading the word about this child. Until now, I haven't stopped to think about Mary's point of view. A young bride-to-be, a virgin who was pregnant, and just delivered her baby in a dirty stable full of animals without the help of an epidural or a midwife or some ice chips to get her through. And then, she pondered these things in her heart.
What must she have been thinking about? I know after I gave birth to Phoenix, I was a mess of emotion for months to come. Joy, tears, uncertainty, happiness, sadness, you name it, I felt it. And some emotions felt like I was feeling them for the first time. But with Mary, she was no ordinary woman, and Jesus was no ordinary son. Did Mary know who Jesus really was? The One that Isaiah prophesied would be "Wonderful, Counselor, Almighty God, the Everlasting Father, the Prince of Peace"? Did Mary know that Jesus had only just entered into time, yet had existed outside of time and had created the world she lived in? Did Mary understand that Jesus had knit her in her mother's womb many years before, and yet also had just come from her own womb? Did Mary know that her baby boy was the Word made flesh? She couldn't have possibly thought of what would happen more than thirty years later, when she would witness her baby boy dying on the cross to save her own sins.
Wow, the Christmas story is so rich and full of meaning. How tragic that this world has robbed it of its depth. People rushed and frustrated, trying to buy all the right gifts for all the right people. The presents, the holiday rush, the distractions. I struggle to accept this type of Christmas that stresses and hurries to buy all the right things, get the best deals, have the best decorations and worry over things that shouldn't worry me.
Christmas this year has become very still and quiet for me. I cannot have it both ways, I've discovered. Either I celebrate what I say I do, the birth of Christ, or I celebrate the American Christmas. I never felt I had to choose before. But now I feel the Lord calling me to make Jesus the center of my life, especially the center of my holidays. Jesus takes up my whole heart and He will not share His glory with another. When He is the focus of my life, there is no room for the things that don't matter. "For God has...called us to live a holy life." 1 Thessalonians 4:7.
What must she have been thinking about? I know after I gave birth to Phoenix, I was a mess of emotion for months to come. Joy, tears, uncertainty, happiness, sadness, you name it, I felt it. And some emotions felt like I was feeling them for the first time. But with Mary, she was no ordinary woman, and Jesus was no ordinary son. Did Mary know who Jesus really was? The One that Isaiah prophesied would be "Wonderful, Counselor, Almighty God, the Everlasting Father, the Prince of Peace"? Did Mary know that Jesus had only just entered into time, yet had existed outside of time and had created the world she lived in? Did Mary understand that Jesus had knit her in her mother's womb many years before, and yet also had just come from her own womb? Did Mary know that her baby boy was the Word made flesh? She couldn't have possibly thought of what would happen more than thirty years later, when she would witness her baby boy dying on the cross to save her own sins.
Wow, the Christmas story is so rich and full of meaning. How tragic that this world has robbed it of its depth. People rushed and frustrated, trying to buy all the right gifts for all the right people. The presents, the holiday rush, the distractions. I struggle to accept this type of Christmas that stresses and hurries to buy all the right things, get the best deals, have the best decorations and worry over things that shouldn't worry me.
Christmas this year has become very still and quiet for me. I cannot have it both ways, I've discovered. Either I celebrate what I say I do, the birth of Christ, or I celebrate the American Christmas. I never felt I had to choose before. But now I feel the Lord calling me to make Jesus the center of my life, especially the center of my holidays. Jesus takes up my whole heart and He will not share His glory with another. When He is the focus of my life, there is no room for the things that don't matter. "For God has...called us to live a holy life." 1 Thessalonians 4:7.
Friday, December 11, 2009
Bursting Heart
My heart is so full right now. I feel a mixture of emotions. Sad because I am apart from Isaac again. Happy because one of my best friends has been set free, and that is as much detail as I will give. Joyful over knowing the Lord and grateful to be His daughter. Lonely as I look over the next 2 weeks and realize I will be waking up alone every morning without my personal Hubby Heater to snuggle up to. The strongest thing I am feeling right now...is Peace.
Jesus said "My peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27. Jesus is so right, as usual! Sometimes when life is crazy, and I feel overwhelmed by the weight of my burdens, I say these words of Jesus to myself, sometimes out loud, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest... For my burden is light." Then I ask God, out loud or in my heart, "What does this mean? God, are you really going to get Isaac a new job so we don't have to be apart anymore? Are you really going to give me rest, or did you just say that? Do you really mean it?"
Then, with such loving patience that only a Father can have for his immature daughter, God reminds me that He is in control. Isaiah 55:8, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways," God said. Romans 8:28, "We know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him." Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." Psalm 138:8, "The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me. Your love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not abandon the work of your hands." These promises from God comfort me. Is God a liar? No, He has proved Himself trustworthy to me countless times. So if God is not a liar, then He will do what He says He will.
That means that He will hear and answer my prayers. Maybe not in the way I want Him to, or in the time frame I set up for Him. "God, please give Isaac a new job NOW!" I pray. But God's timing is not my own. The Bible says a day is like a thousand years to the Lord, and a thousand years like a day. When God promises He will prosper me, He will work out everything for my good, He will fulfil His purpose for me, I know He will. I know He will.
So I wait. My circumstances have not changed. Isaac is still gone, and loneliness makes its company in my heart. But I feel tangible relief from this: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." His peace makes no sense. Why should I feel joy in trials? I don't know. But my peace in the middle of my chaos is a gift from God that I welcome with hungry, open arms. "Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you," God has promised. He is right, He is always right.
I am confident that God is using this season of my life to bring His name glory and to grow me up, for I am still a child. I do not understand a lot about Him. But I take comfort in that, too. Because if I understood everything about God, all of His ways and mysteries, then He would not be such a marvelous and life-changing God. He doesn't fit in my box, my puzzle, my human mind. I praise Him for that. He is so much more!
"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him." 1 Corinthians 2:9.
Jesus said "My peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27. Jesus is so right, as usual! Sometimes when life is crazy, and I feel overwhelmed by the weight of my burdens, I say these words of Jesus to myself, sometimes out loud, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest... For my burden is light." Then I ask God, out loud or in my heart, "What does this mean? God, are you really going to get Isaac a new job so we don't have to be apart anymore? Are you really going to give me rest, or did you just say that? Do you really mean it?"
Then, with such loving patience that only a Father can have for his immature daughter, God reminds me that He is in control. Isaiah 55:8, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways," God said. Romans 8:28, "We know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him." Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." Psalm 138:8, "The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me. Your love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not abandon the work of your hands." These promises from God comfort me. Is God a liar? No, He has proved Himself trustworthy to me countless times. So if God is not a liar, then He will do what He says He will.
That means that He will hear and answer my prayers. Maybe not in the way I want Him to, or in the time frame I set up for Him. "God, please give Isaac a new job NOW!" I pray. But God's timing is not my own. The Bible says a day is like a thousand years to the Lord, and a thousand years like a day. When God promises He will prosper me, He will work out everything for my good, He will fulfil His purpose for me, I know He will. I know He will.
So I wait. My circumstances have not changed. Isaac is still gone, and loneliness makes its company in my heart. But I feel tangible relief from this: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." His peace makes no sense. Why should I feel joy in trials? I don't know. But my peace in the middle of my chaos is a gift from God that I welcome with hungry, open arms. "Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you," God has promised. He is right, He is always right.
I am confident that God is using this season of my life to bring His name glory and to grow me up, for I am still a child. I do not understand a lot about Him. But I take comfort in that, too. Because if I understood everything about God, all of His ways and mysteries, then He would not be such a marvelous and life-changing God. He doesn't fit in my box, my puzzle, my human mind. I praise Him for that. He is so much more!
"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him." 1 Corinthians 2:9.
Friday, December 4, 2009
It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas
I love Christmas. I don't have very many Christmas decorations at all, actually none. So my mother-in-law, Wendy, let me borrow some from her wide array of decor! I snagged a few odds and ends, but my favorite is her Christmas village. I have always wanted to own one of those, with the beautiful houses and tiny people and trees. I set it up on top of my entertainment center so that Phoenix can't destroy it. I think I will check out the stores after Christmas to find a clearance village of my own.
Yesterday was an eventful day for us. Between house cleaning and grocery shopping and other errands, Max and Jack escaped. Ugh. Lucky for me, Jack came back home, with a bird's nest in his mouth. But Max was yet to be found. I drove around the whole town of Mesquite (the whole town!) but couldn't find him. Finally, in the afternoon, I saw him running across the street being chased down by a policeman. Apparently he had barely avoided several car accidents and they were trying to catch him for hours. I was slightly embarrassed, but not much since this isn't the first, or second, or even tenth time this has happened. Max hopped in the car, fell asleep immediately (must have been tired from being a wild wanderer), and is with us safe and sound. For now.
Phoenix has been sick but he is finally getting better. After a week of having to wrestle him to wipe his boogie nose, he is grown up enough to now allow me a quick swipe. He'll even make blowing noises and say "uh-oh" to let me know when it's time for a wipe. Uh-oh is one of his favorite words. He says it a lot. I bought him some crayons and markers, and this morning he enjoyed coloring with me. He is getting so grown up! He mostly likes to take the lids off the markers and try to put them back on.
Isaac gets home on Monday, 3 more days to go. This job of his is very challenging but boy, does it make our time together even more precious, even sweeter. We get 3 days together this time before he has to head out on another show. I will definitely make the best of it. Uh-oh, Phoenix just said uh-oh. Better go get the tissue...
Yesterday was an eventful day for us. Between house cleaning and grocery shopping and other errands, Max and Jack escaped. Ugh. Lucky for me, Jack came back home, with a bird's nest in his mouth. But Max was yet to be found. I drove around the whole town of Mesquite (the whole town!) but couldn't find him. Finally, in the afternoon, I saw him running across the street being chased down by a policeman. Apparently he had barely avoided several car accidents and they were trying to catch him for hours. I was slightly embarrassed, but not much since this isn't the first, or second, or even tenth time this has happened. Max hopped in the car, fell asleep immediately (must have been tired from being a wild wanderer), and is with us safe and sound. For now.
Phoenix has been sick but he is finally getting better. After a week of having to wrestle him to wipe his boogie nose, he is grown up enough to now allow me a quick swipe. He'll even make blowing noises and say "uh-oh" to let me know when it's time for a wipe. Uh-oh is one of his favorite words. He says it a lot. I bought him some crayons and markers, and this morning he enjoyed coloring with me. He is getting so grown up! He mostly likes to take the lids off the markers and try to put them back on.
Isaac gets home on Monday, 3 more days to go. This job of his is very challenging but boy, does it make our time together even more precious, even sweeter. We get 3 days together this time before he has to head out on another show. I will definitely make the best of it. Uh-oh, Phoenix just said uh-oh. Better go get the tissue...
Monday, November 30, 2009
2009 In a Nutshell (So far)
Today is the last day of November. Tomorrow begins the last month of the year. I am reflecting on the year 2009, on all of its triumphs and successes, as well as the hard times and lessons learned. All in all it has been one of the best years of my life, in more ways than one.
In January I was a stay-at-home mom with a husband who worked from home, living in a comfortable 3 bedroom home with a great yard and my life felt safe. I did not know how great I had it. I thought I was grateful, but I was not. The first few months of the year passed by normally and as usual- gearing up for the Blitz football season, watching Phoenix grow and reach new milestones, spending lots of great time with my husband. February, March, and April breezed past us.
By May, we were out of money, selling our furniture to buy groceries and pay bills, and unsure of our future. In June an excellent job opportunity came up for Isaac to move across the country and sell alarm systems. So off we went with no more than a few suitcases full of the belongings we had left, to live in a sort-of furnished apartment in Springfield, Missouri. I did all that I could to make the place feel like home, adding candles and blankets and homemade meals (this was the summer I finally became comfortable in the kitchen, much to Isaac's relief). I can easily say this was the most difficult time in my life. It tested my marriage and my faith in God. I learned some incredible lessons, like how to really trust God and really love Him for who He is, not for what He gives me. When I had no television, no furniture of my own, no car, and no money, I was forced to choose. Either I would bloom where I was planted, or die on the spot. I chose to be joyful, although it wasn't easy. I'll never forget our first day there. We got off the airplane, ate some lunch with our friends and summer companions, Nate and Taryn, and then Isaac dropped me off at our new apartment and went off to start his first long day of work. There I was, just me and Phoenix. No toilet paper. No food in the fridge. No linens or towels or soap. Nothing to do but unpack our clothes and wait for Isaac in the emptiness.
I did a lot of waiting for Isaac that summer. He worked 6 days a week, for 12 hours or more a day. He would sleep in because he was exhausted from the day before, eat a little breakfast, shower, and head off to another day of knocking doors in the hot, humid weather we never quite got used to, and he would walk in the door around 9 or 10:00 at night, fall into bed, and repeat the next day. Sunday was his only day off. It was a trying, difficult, yet wonderful time for us. Things got better when the company moved us to Laredo, Texas, at the end of July. By that time we had saved enough money to buy a used car to drive to Texas in. We lived there for one month. The thing that stands out the most in my memory is the day we arrived in Laredo. We had just made the 15 hour drive from Missouri, only to discover we were in a one bedroom apartment, not a 2 bedroom like we were promised. I saw Nate and Taryn's apartment, a much more spacious 2 bedroom with much cooler features. I confess, ashamedly, that I was a brat that day. I complained to Isaac and cried and complained some more. It wasn't fair, I whined. Why do we have to be the ones stuck in a tiny one bedroom where Phoenix is going to practically be sleeping on top of us? It's not enough space, I cried. Why me? Why me!
It's a good thing that my tantrum lasted only a few hours. I felt ashamed before God for being so ungrateful, and for comparing myself to our friends. They deserved a nice place to stay. And I said sorry to Isaac, and to God, for being so ugly. I never complained again, and truly enjoyed that apartment very much once I got over myself.
The end of August brought us to Mesquite, Nevada. Isaac was beat from 3 months of door-to-door sales. After a 24-hour, non-stop drive with a one year old (don't ask me how we did it), we arrived on August 24th, Phoenix's birthday. It was nice to be back in the dry heat, back with family after a summer alone, back with our dogs, Max and Jack (although Jack suffered a car accident just days before we came home and still limps from it). Isaac took all of one week off before he got restless and started to look for work. Within days he took a job with VitaMix, selling these super nice blenders at Costcos on the west coast. I had no idea what we were getting into.
We lived with my in-laws for almost 3 months. This was a great experience for us. We continued to practice the art of living on less, and are still so thankful to Bubba and Wendy for feeding us and taking care of us. We shared a room with Phoenix, which we were used to at this point, and were so thankful to have a place to stay and spend time with family. In November, after weeks of asking God where He wanted us to live next, we found a home for rent just a few houses down from Isaac's parents (which is ironic, since Isaac said he did not want to live in Mesquite, and he did not want to live close to his parents. God must have a sense of humor). Mesquite works because it is close to the airport when Isaac has to leave for work, and also close to St. George where Isaac needs to beto take care of the Blitz. Plus I have family to see while he's away to curb my lonliness.
That brings us to today. Isaac still works for VitaMix. He is gone for more than 20 days of the month. He usually leaves for 10 days at a time, stays home for a few days, and goes back out to another show. Right now he is in California. He left the day after Thanksgiving and will be home December 7th.
This morning I was praying. I told God how lonely I am, and how I don't like being away from my husband like this. I told Him I am unsure of our future, and unsure of my purpose in this life. Then I remembered this past year, with all of its ups and downs, twists and turns. I remembered Missouri. I remembered Laredo. I remembered everything, how I saw none of it coming but was so thankful to experience all of it. The things I have learned have changed me completely, and I could have never learned these things any other way. We had to lose stuff and move and grow and change and start over, we needed to. My prayers turned to praise, for all that God has chosen to do in our lives this year. It has been unlike anything I could have ever planned. But by God's grace, we are in a small home again, with furniture of our own (that we salvaged from garage sales and the DI), a car to drive, our health, and each other. I am excited to see what December brings, and then what 2010 is like for us. Today is the last day of November, but the first day of the remainder of my short, crazy, happy, unpredictable life. I welcome all of it, the good and bad, because I know God has me right where He wants me, and He is going to use this time in my life to make me better, and to bring glory to His name.
Lord, thank You for 2009. I wouldn't have had it any other way. You really do know best.
In January I was a stay-at-home mom with a husband who worked from home, living in a comfortable 3 bedroom home with a great yard and my life felt safe. I did not know how great I had it. I thought I was grateful, but I was not. The first few months of the year passed by normally and as usual- gearing up for the Blitz football season, watching Phoenix grow and reach new milestones, spending lots of great time with my husband. February, March, and April breezed past us.
By May, we were out of money, selling our furniture to buy groceries and pay bills, and unsure of our future. In June an excellent job opportunity came up for Isaac to move across the country and sell alarm systems. So off we went with no more than a few suitcases full of the belongings we had left, to live in a sort-of furnished apartment in Springfield, Missouri. I did all that I could to make the place feel like home, adding candles and blankets and homemade meals (this was the summer I finally became comfortable in the kitchen, much to Isaac's relief). I can easily say this was the most difficult time in my life. It tested my marriage and my faith in God. I learned some incredible lessons, like how to really trust God and really love Him for who He is, not for what He gives me. When I had no television, no furniture of my own, no car, and no money, I was forced to choose. Either I would bloom where I was planted, or die on the spot. I chose to be joyful, although it wasn't easy. I'll never forget our first day there. We got off the airplane, ate some lunch with our friends and summer companions, Nate and Taryn, and then Isaac dropped me off at our new apartment and went off to start his first long day of work. There I was, just me and Phoenix. No toilet paper. No food in the fridge. No linens or towels or soap. Nothing to do but unpack our clothes and wait for Isaac in the emptiness.
I did a lot of waiting for Isaac that summer. He worked 6 days a week, for 12 hours or more a day. He would sleep in because he was exhausted from the day before, eat a little breakfast, shower, and head off to another day of knocking doors in the hot, humid weather we never quite got used to, and he would walk in the door around 9 or 10:00 at night, fall into bed, and repeat the next day. Sunday was his only day off. It was a trying, difficult, yet wonderful time for us. Things got better when the company moved us to Laredo, Texas, at the end of July. By that time we had saved enough money to buy a used car to drive to Texas in. We lived there for one month. The thing that stands out the most in my memory is the day we arrived in Laredo. We had just made the 15 hour drive from Missouri, only to discover we were in a one bedroom apartment, not a 2 bedroom like we were promised. I saw Nate and Taryn's apartment, a much more spacious 2 bedroom with much cooler features. I confess, ashamedly, that I was a brat that day. I complained to Isaac and cried and complained some more. It wasn't fair, I whined. Why do we have to be the ones stuck in a tiny one bedroom where Phoenix is going to practically be sleeping on top of us? It's not enough space, I cried. Why me? Why me!
It's a good thing that my tantrum lasted only a few hours. I felt ashamed before God for being so ungrateful, and for comparing myself to our friends. They deserved a nice place to stay. And I said sorry to Isaac, and to God, for being so ugly. I never complained again, and truly enjoyed that apartment very much once I got over myself.
The end of August brought us to Mesquite, Nevada. Isaac was beat from 3 months of door-to-door sales. After a 24-hour, non-stop drive with a one year old (don't ask me how we did it), we arrived on August 24th, Phoenix's birthday. It was nice to be back in the dry heat, back with family after a summer alone, back with our dogs, Max and Jack (although Jack suffered a car accident just days before we came home and still limps from it). Isaac took all of one week off before he got restless and started to look for work. Within days he took a job with VitaMix, selling these super nice blenders at Costcos on the west coast. I had no idea what we were getting into.
We lived with my in-laws for almost 3 months. This was a great experience for us. We continued to practice the art of living on less, and are still so thankful to Bubba and Wendy for feeding us and taking care of us. We shared a room with Phoenix, which we were used to at this point, and were so thankful to have a place to stay and spend time with family. In November, after weeks of asking God where He wanted us to live next, we found a home for rent just a few houses down from Isaac's parents (which is ironic, since Isaac said he did not want to live in Mesquite, and he did not want to live close to his parents. God must have a sense of humor). Mesquite works because it is close to the airport when Isaac has to leave for work, and also close to St. George where Isaac needs to beto take care of the Blitz. Plus I have family to see while he's away to curb my lonliness.
That brings us to today. Isaac still works for VitaMix. He is gone for more than 20 days of the month. He usually leaves for 10 days at a time, stays home for a few days, and goes back out to another show. Right now he is in California. He left the day after Thanksgiving and will be home December 7th.
This morning I was praying. I told God how lonely I am, and how I don't like being away from my husband like this. I told Him I am unsure of our future, and unsure of my purpose in this life. Then I remembered this past year, with all of its ups and downs, twists and turns. I remembered Missouri. I remembered Laredo. I remembered everything, how I saw none of it coming but was so thankful to experience all of it. The things I have learned have changed me completely, and I could have never learned these things any other way. We had to lose stuff and move and grow and change and start over, we needed to. My prayers turned to praise, for all that God has chosen to do in our lives this year. It has been unlike anything I could have ever planned. But by God's grace, we are in a small home again, with furniture of our own (that we salvaged from garage sales and the DI), a car to drive, our health, and each other. I am excited to see what December brings, and then what 2010 is like for us. Today is the last day of November, but the first day of the remainder of my short, crazy, happy, unpredictable life. I welcome all of it, the good and bad, because I know God has me right where He wants me, and He is going to use this time in my life to make me better, and to bring glory to His name.
Lord, thank You for 2009. I wouldn't have had it any other way. You really do know best.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Thankful
Thanksgiving is the time when we are all reminded of what we have in our lives to be thankful for. In America, our list of what to be thankful for is often similar- family, friends, food. I love James 1:17 that says "Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights...". This Bible verse tells me that every good thing I have in my life is from the Lord. EVERYTHING! This includes so much more than I am aware of on a daily basis.
It is easy for me to forget to thank God for some things in my life. When I miss my husband and feel lonely, I forget to be thankful that I even have a husband who loves me and that works hard for my family. When I feel overwhelmed by debt or bills, I forget to be thankful that we have a home and hundreds of other comforts that people in other countires do not have and may never have. When I feel bad about myself (too fat, etc), I forget to thank the Lord that I am healthy and my body is fearfully and wonderfully made.
I am the average, ordinary woman that often forgets just how blessed I am. I can be selfish, ungrateful, and even ugly at times. But this Thanksgiving, my heart is full of thanks to my God and my Savior. He loves me, Jessica, the apple of His eye, no matter what! And He wants to make something special of my life. I don't know why He put me on this earth, or what my purpose is. One thing I do know- God is real, He died to give me a hope and a future, and I thank Him for that. My goal is to thank Him every day by offering Him my life, not just during the holidays but every day year-round. Lord, I love You. Thank you. This Thanksgiving is for You. May my life be lived in a way that brings a smile to Your face.
It is easy for me to forget to thank God for some things in my life. When I miss my husband and feel lonely, I forget to be thankful that I even have a husband who loves me and that works hard for my family. When I feel overwhelmed by debt or bills, I forget to be thankful that we have a home and hundreds of other comforts that people in other countires do not have and may never have. When I feel bad about myself (too fat, etc), I forget to thank the Lord that I am healthy and my body is fearfully and wonderfully made.
I am the average, ordinary woman that often forgets just how blessed I am. I can be selfish, ungrateful, and even ugly at times. But this Thanksgiving, my heart is full of thanks to my God and my Savior. He loves me, Jessica, the apple of His eye, no matter what! And He wants to make something special of my life. I don't know why He put me on this earth, or what my purpose is. One thing I do know- God is real, He died to give me a hope and a future, and I thank Him for that. My goal is to thank Him every day by offering Him my life, not just during the holidays but every day year-round. Lord, I love You. Thank you. This Thanksgiving is for You. May my life be lived in a way that brings a smile to Your face.
Friday, November 20, 2009
Thank You
Thank You, Lord, for this life. It is not perfect, there is much evil and oppression here. But how can I focus on all of that when You've given me so much more?
Father, what is this life without You? You spoke the world into motion, created something out of nothing.You are the hope of the world, because You give us life beyond this wasted earth. You are love, Your Word says You are love. And with You, I am able to love others. Thank You for pregnancy, that I was able to get pregnant with my son and then carry and deliver Him. I know many women struggle with this. You made my heart, my mind, my soul. You gave me my family, my faith, my home and life. You have given me so many promises. Never will You leave me. You will come back for me, to take me to be with You where You are. And most importantly, you knew I was a desperate, sinful person in need of help, and You died on the cross for me, so that I could humbly accept Your sacrifice and then live with You forever someday. Forever is a long time! Thank You, Jesus, that I am assured of my salvation, that I don't do anything to make myself right or pure in Your eyes. It's all about Jesus, He is my righteousness.
Lord, You carried the cross for my shame. You gave up EVERYTHING for me and for anyone else that will accept You. What can I say? What can I do? I now offer my heart completely to You. I'll walk upon salvation, Your spirit alive in me. My soul now to stand! It is well with my soul. I'll stand with arms wide and heart abandoned, in awe of the One who gave it all. I'll stand, my soul, Lord, to You surrendered. All I am is Yours. I love You, Lord. Thank you for this life.
Father, what is this life without You? You spoke the world into motion, created something out of nothing.You are the hope of the world, because You give us life beyond this wasted earth. You are love, Your Word says You are love. And with You, I am able to love others. Thank You for pregnancy, that I was able to get pregnant with my son and then carry and deliver Him. I know many women struggle with this. You made my heart, my mind, my soul. You gave me my family, my faith, my home and life. You have given me so many promises. Never will You leave me. You will come back for me, to take me to be with You where You are. And most importantly, you knew I was a desperate, sinful person in need of help, and You died on the cross for me, so that I could humbly accept Your sacrifice and then live with You forever someday. Forever is a long time! Thank You, Jesus, that I am assured of my salvation, that I don't do anything to make myself right or pure in Your eyes. It's all about Jesus, He is my righteousness.
Lord, You carried the cross for my shame. You gave up EVERYTHING for me and for anyone else that will accept You. What can I say? What can I do? I now offer my heart completely to You. I'll walk upon salvation, Your spirit alive in me. My soul now to stand! It is well with my soul. I'll stand with arms wide and heart abandoned, in awe of the One who gave it all. I'll stand, my soul, Lord, to You surrendered. All I am is Yours. I love You, Lord. Thank you for this life.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
October Fun
This morning, Phoenix and I are driving to Las Vegas to pick Daddy up from the airport. I am delighted, since it's been over a week since I saw Isaac. Then, as of now, he has 2 weeks until he has to leave again on a 10-day show.
Life has been fairly ordinary. Phoenix and I still spend our days outside in the beautiful Fall weather, going for walks and playing fetch with the dogs. Phoenix just recovered from 2 days of a feverish sickness; after extra sleep and snuggle time, he's feeling much better. Now he's back to his stubborn, aggressive self. Wonder where he got that from?
Last weekend we went up to St. George to Staheli Farm. There was a pumpkin patch, corn maze, and petting zoo. Phoenix really enjoyed the animals, particularly the baby goats. He would pull on their tails and giggle when they tried to run away from him. He also loved the corn maze; he would pick up a husk of the dried up corn, try to bite into it, and then throw it and move on to another corn husk. It was a fun day.
I recently got my hair cut and dyed to my natural brown. at first I wasn't used to the new hair, and despaired at how to style it. But now I have really grown into it, and it's a nice change. Bangs are fun and playful, and I love having my hair back to brown. I've had streaks in it since 5th grade! All in all, life is sweet. We're all healthy, provided for, and blessed. Lord, thank You for another day on this earthly home in which to enjoy all that You've given us...
Life has been fairly ordinary. Phoenix and I still spend our days outside in the beautiful Fall weather, going for walks and playing fetch with the dogs. Phoenix just recovered from 2 days of a feverish sickness; after extra sleep and snuggle time, he's feeling much better. Now he's back to his stubborn, aggressive self. Wonder where he got that from?
Last weekend we went up to St. George to Staheli Farm. There was a pumpkin patch, corn maze, and petting zoo. Phoenix really enjoyed the animals, particularly the baby goats. He would pull on their tails and giggle when they tried to run away from him. He also loved the corn maze; he would pick up a husk of the dried up corn, try to bite into it, and then throw it and move on to another corn husk. It was a fun day.
I recently got my hair cut and dyed to my natural brown. at first I wasn't used to the new hair, and despaired at how to style it. But now I have really grown into it, and it's a nice change. Bangs are fun and playful, and I love having my hair back to brown. I've had streaks in it since 5th grade! All in all, life is sweet. We're all healthy, provided for, and blessed. Lord, thank You for another day on this earthly home in which to enjoy all that You've given us...
Monday, October 19, 2009
Lord, use my earthen vessel
I had the great privelege of attending Mesquite's first Women's Conference this past weekend. Wow, was I blessed. We worshipped God through our songs, music, reading of His Word, fellowship, and prayer. I know the Lord was glorified. I was blessed to meet some new sisters in Christ who also have little children. Now I know people here! Not as many as my husband, but he grew up here, so he knows almost everyone.
The theme was from 2 Corinthians 4:7 in the Bible: "We have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God, not of us." I learned a myriad of things. One of them is that I am God's precious workmanship, created by Him to know Him, love Him, and glorify Him. He has given me this treasure, the Good News about Jesus, in my earthen vessel (my body) to share with others. And the best part is that even though I am a weak sinner, and I stumble daily, God still chooses to use me in my weakness, so that He might remind me that it's by His strength I serve Him and through His mercy that I am any good at all.
We have been trying to find a place to rent in Mesquite. We had our eyes on a place, but we waited too long to put in our application and it was taken. My first reaction was to be angry that we had waited so long, but then I recognized the Lord's hand. He is in control of every detail in my life, and He would have given me that house if it was His plan for me. So now I wait on Him and continue looking for the place He wants to give us to live in.
And finally, family news. Phoenix is growing lots of teeth, very painfully and crankilly! Good thing I love him so much. :) Isaac left this morning for a work trip to California, and he gets back Sunday. Not bad, only a 6 day trip. I miss him already. Thank goodness the Lord has promised me "Never will I leave you," otherwise I might get too lonely!
The theme was from 2 Corinthians 4:7 in the Bible: "We have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God, not of us." I learned a myriad of things. One of them is that I am God's precious workmanship, created by Him to know Him, love Him, and glorify Him. He has given me this treasure, the Good News about Jesus, in my earthen vessel (my body) to share with others. And the best part is that even though I am a weak sinner, and I stumble daily, God still chooses to use me in my weakness, so that He might remind me that it's by His strength I serve Him and through His mercy that I am any good at all.
We have been trying to find a place to rent in Mesquite. We had our eyes on a place, but we waited too long to put in our application and it was taken. My first reaction was to be angry that we had waited so long, but then I recognized the Lord's hand. He is in control of every detail in my life, and He would have given me that house if it was His plan for me. So now I wait on Him and continue looking for the place He wants to give us to live in.
And finally, family news. Phoenix is growing lots of teeth, very painfully and crankilly! Good thing I love him so much. :) Isaac left this morning for a work trip to California, and he gets back Sunday. Not bad, only a 6 day trip. I miss him already. Thank goodness the Lord has promised me "Never will I leave you," otherwise I might get too lonely!
Friday, October 9, 2009
Goodbye Summer, Fall is Here!
We have really enjoyed our summer. It's been the most exciting summer we've ever had, and included the following adventures:
1. We lived in four states- from Utah, to Missouri, to Texas, and now we are temporarily settled in Nevada. We enjoyed the chaos of moving and learned more things than I can tell. If you ever want to learn a lot about life and about yourself, then sell all your furniture and go on an adventure, trusting God as your leader!
2. Phoenix is not a baby, he is a toddler. A year old, not nearly as bald, starting to talk (his latest saying is "Uh-oh!" whenever he drops something). We wait on the Lord to see when He wants us to try for another baby.
3. Isaac has a new job, another sales job, that keeps him travelling. And he is considering becoming a fire fighter. I think it would be a perfect fit for him, since he loves a challenge and has never done well with traditional, 9-to-5 jobs.
I am seeking the Lord's will for our future. In the meantime, I enjoy the present moment and all that God gives us. Living with my in-laws has been such a blessing to my family. We've learned a lot and being with family helps to curb my lonliness when Isaac's gone for work. His latest trip was to Idaho, and it's a ten day trip- YIKES!- so I can look forward to seeing him around 3:00 AM this Monday. I can't wait to hug him and enjoy some time together before his next trip.
Summer has been great, full of change and growth. Fall is here, my favorite season, and the weather is perfect. 70 degrees, a slight Autumn breeze...ahh...the weather must feel like this in heaven!
1. We lived in four states- from Utah, to Missouri, to Texas, and now we are temporarily settled in Nevada. We enjoyed the chaos of moving and learned more things than I can tell. If you ever want to learn a lot about life and about yourself, then sell all your furniture and go on an adventure, trusting God as your leader!
2. Phoenix is not a baby, he is a toddler. A year old, not nearly as bald, starting to talk (his latest saying is "Uh-oh!" whenever he drops something). We wait on the Lord to see when He wants us to try for another baby.
3. Isaac has a new job, another sales job, that keeps him travelling. And he is considering becoming a fire fighter. I think it would be a perfect fit for him, since he loves a challenge and has never done well with traditional, 9-to-5 jobs.
I am seeking the Lord's will for our future. In the meantime, I enjoy the present moment and all that God gives us. Living with my in-laws has been such a blessing to my family. We've learned a lot and being with family helps to curb my lonliness when Isaac's gone for work. His latest trip was to Idaho, and it's a ten day trip- YIKES!- so I can look forward to seeing him around 3:00 AM this Monday. I can't wait to hug him and enjoy some time together before his next trip.
Summer has been great, full of change and growth. Fall is here, my favorite season, and the weather is perfect. 70 degrees, a slight Autumn breeze...ahh...the weather must feel like this in heaven!
Monday, September 14, 2009
Letter to Phoenix
I was reading one of my friend's blogs tonight, and she mentioned that she plans to write a letter to her daughter each year for her birthday to tell her about herself and how she feels about her. I decided to adopt this tradition and just finished writing my first letter to Phoenix. Here is an excerpt:
I want to tell you how special you are to me. You have helped Mommy grow up a lot, because I love you more than I love me, so it makes me want to take care of you no matter what. Even if Mommy is tired or sad, I still want to take special care of you and make sure you are happy. I really love to cuddle with you. You aren’t much of a cuddler, since you like to run and play, but when you do lay your little head on my shoulder and snuggle me, it feels like nothing else in the world. I love to take care of you, to feed you when you are hungry and give you a bath when you are dirty.
When Mommy and Daddy wanted to have a baby, Mommy prayed to God about it. I told Him how much I wanted to have a baby, and I asked Him to please give me a baby in my tummy. And God is always faithful. He did choose to give me a baby, and that baby was you! Even when you lived inside of my tummy, and I couldn’t see what you looked like, I was still your Mommy, and I still loved you with all my heart. I could feel you move inside there, and I could hear your heartbeat. I could feel you growing and getting stronger. I couldn’t wait for you to come into the world and be my Phoenix.
I am thankful that God, in His grace and wisdom, created me to be a woman and allowed me to be a wife and mother. I recognize that marriage and children are not a part of God's plan for every one of His children, but He did choose to gift me with a husband and a son. For that, I am eternally grateful, for all that it teaches me and for all the joy it brings me. I delight in the Lord because of His wisdom, His creativity, and His miraculous plans. When I look at Phoenix, I wonder how anybody could doubt the existence of our God.
I want to tell you how special you are to me. You have helped Mommy grow up a lot, because I love you more than I love me, so it makes me want to take care of you no matter what. Even if Mommy is tired or sad, I still want to take special care of you and make sure you are happy. I really love to cuddle with you. You aren’t much of a cuddler, since you like to run and play, but when you do lay your little head on my shoulder and snuggle me, it feels like nothing else in the world. I love to take care of you, to feed you when you are hungry and give you a bath when you are dirty.
When Mommy and Daddy wanted to have a baby, Mommy prayed to God about it. I told Him how much I wanted to have a baby, and I asked Him to please give me a baby in my tummy. And God is always faithful. He did choose to give me a baby, and that baby was you! Even when you lived inside of my tummy, and I couldn’t see what you looked like, I was still your Mommy, and I still loved you with all my heart. I could feel you move inside there, and I could hear your heartbeat. I could feel you growing and getting stronger. I couldn’t wait for you to come into the world and be my Phoenix.
I am thankful that God, in His grace and wisdom, created me to be a woman and allowed me to be a wife and mother. I recognize that marriage and children are not a part of God's plan for every one of His children, but He did choose to gift me with a husband and a son. For that, I am eternally grateful, for all that it teaches me and for all the joy it brings me. I delight in the Lord because of His wisdom, His creativity, and His miraculous plans. When I look at Phoenix, I wonder how anybody could doubt the existence of our God.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
September is Fun
Isaac celebrated his 24th birthday on September 4th. Wow! My husband is 24 years old, I can't believe it. In a few weeks I will turn 23. As a teenager I dreamed about what life would be like in my twenties. My life is definitely fun, but I never expected things to turn out the way they have. Life is different than I would have thought but better for sure.
Also, my third wedding anniversary was on September 8th. Isaac left for work in California the day before, so we celebrated long distance, which wasn't much of a celebration at all, but we are planning to do something special together soon and make up for missing it. Tonight I am driving with Phoenix to Las Vegas to pick Isaac up from the airport. I'm so thrilled, I haven't seen him for a whole week. We are staying the night in Vegas since his flight gets in so late. I can't wait to see my hubby again and soak him up before he has to leave for another business trip.
Mesquite has been lots of fun. My days are spent chasing after Phoenix and trying to keep him entertained. He enjoys swimming in the backyard and pushing anything with wheels- toys, bicycles, wheelchairs, carts, strollers, ANYTHING with wheels. We are enjoying the Lord's blessings and provision in our life. We may not have our own place to live, but I know God has put us where we are right now for His purposes. I'm enjoying the journey, learning many things, and looking forward to what the Lord has planned for us each day. "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord..."Jeremiah 29:11.
Also, my third wedding anniversary was on September 8th. Isaac left for work in California the day before, so we celebrated long distance, which wasn't much of a celebration at all, but we are planning to do something special together soon and make up for missing it. Tonight I am driving with Phoenix to Las Vegas to pick Isaac up from the airport. I'm so thrilled, I haven't seen him for a whole week. We are staying the night in Vegas since his flight gets in so late. I can't wait to see my hubby again and soak him up before he has to leave for another business trip.
Mesquite has been lots of fun. My days are spent chasing after Phoenix and trying to keep him entertained. He enjoys swimming in the backyard and pushing anything with wheels- toys, bicycles, wheelchairs, carts, strollers, ANYTHING with wheels. We are enjoying the Lord's blessings and provision in our life. We may not have our own place to live, but I know God has put us where we are right now for His purposes. I'm enjoying the journey, learning many things, and looking forward to what the Lord has planned for us each day. "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord..."Jeremiah 29:11.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Who knew I would love the Wii?
On Tuesday, August 25th, my sister-in-law Laura gave birth to Jerzi Ash, a beautiful little girl at 7 lbs 4 oz with a ton of cute black hair! I was so happy to know that she had a great delivery- she went in to the hospital in St. George around 1:30 AM and gave birth before 5:30 AM. Lucky woman! She hardly needed the epidural!
We went over to Josh and Laura's house to visit the baby and our little nephews last week, and Isaac and I played a few rounds of Wii bowling. I used to be opposed to the Wii, since I hate video games, but Wii bowling is awesome! I am proud to announce that I kicked his butt! In real life, most of my bowling balls go into the gutter, but in Wii life, I can bowl pretty well. It feels good to be better than my husband at something sporty.
Phoenix is growing before my eyes! He is almost officially weaned, he just eats once at night when I put him to sleep. That's the hardest feeding to let go of for both of us. Nursing for a year has been challenging, but at the same time rewarding. It will be nice to be done breastfeeding and move on to the next stage: Toddlerhood!
We went over to Josh and Laura's house to visit the baby and our little nephews last week, and Isaac and I played a few rounds of Wii bowling. I used to be opposed to the Wii, since I hate video games, but Wii bowling is awesome! I am proud to announce that I kicked his butt! In real life, most of my bowling balls go into the gutter, but in Wii life, I can bowl pretty well. It feels good to be better than my husband at something sporty.
Phoenix is growing before my eyes! He is almost officially weaned, he just eats once at night when I put him to sleep. That's the hardest feeding to let go of for both of us. Nursing for a year has been challenging, but at the same time rewarding. It will be nice to be done breastfeeding and move on to the next stage: Toddlerhood!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Back Home
Happy Birthday, Phoenix!
On Monday, August 24th, my son turned a year old, a whole year. Wow! He is not my baby anymore, but has grown into a toddler who walks and throws things and gets dirty and everything.
We went to Austin for a few days and had an early birthday celebration for Phoenix with my family. Phoenix had his first piece of cake, an organic chocolate double-layer I baked for him to enjoy. He mostly threw it all on the floor and squirmed to get out of his seat. He also enjoyed playing with Grandma and Grandpa Ortiz, and his aunts and uncle, especially Aunt Lily. It was all very exciting.
What's more exciting is that we are back home now, and by home I mean in Mesquite, the town where Isaac and I met and can't seem to leave! We left Sunday afternoon after church and lunch with my family in Austin, and then drove the near-24 hours it takes to get here. SO HAPPY that drive is over! Phoenix was great, just sat in his seat with his toys and Baby Einstein playing on the DVD player. Isaac was my hero, he drove the night shift so I could sleep. My mistake was eating McDonald's in El Paso at midnight. Ugh, the grease did not settle well with me and I felt sick the entire rest of the trip. Too bad it was the only place open. Another exciting fact about our trip: the restroom stalls in El Paso did not have doors. That was the scariest bathroom trip I ever made, just waiting for someone to walk in on me tinkling.
We are so thrilled to be back with family, with our awesome dogs, in a place that feels familiar. I don't know what the future holds as we still live day by day. Isaac is looking for a job here in Mesquite, and we're praying about where the Lord wants to take us next. In the meantime, I'm enjoying my first Isaac-filled days in a long time. It feels great to be home.
On Monday, August 24th, my son turned a year old, a whole year. Wow! He is not my baby anymore, but has grown into a toddler who walks and throws things and gets dirty and everything.
We went to Austin for a few days and had an early birthday celebration for Phoenix with my family. Phoenix had his first piece of cake, an organic chocolate double-layer I baked for him to enjoy. He mostly threw it all on the floor and squirmed to get out of his seat. He also enjoyed playing with Grandma and Grandpa Ortiz, and his aunts and uncle, especially Aunt Lily. It was all very exciting.
What's more exciting is that we are back home now, and by home I mean in Mesquite, the town where Isaac and I met and can't seem to leave! We left Sunday afternoon after church and lunch with my family in Austin, and then drove the near-24 hours it takes to get here. SO HAPPY that drive is over! Phoenix was great, just sat in his seat with his toys and Baby Einstein playing on the DVD player. Isaac was my hero, he drove the night shift so I could sleep. My mistake was eating McDonald's in El Paso at midnight. Ugh, the grease did not settle well with me and I felt sick the entire rest of the trip. Too bad it was the only place open. Another exciting fact about our trip: the restroom stalls in El Paso did not have doors. That was the scariest bathroom trip I ever made, just waiting for someone to walk in on me tinkling.
We are so thrilled to be back with family, with our awesome dogs, in a place that feels familiar. I don't know what the future holds as we still live day by day. Isaac is looking for a job here in Mesquite, and we're praying about where the Lord wants to take us next. In the meantime, I'm enjoying my first Isaac-filled days in a long time. It feels great to be home.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Frog-O-Sphere!
This past Sunday we went up to San Antonio again to spend time with our friend Pat and watch him practice football. It was a lot of fun, especially since our friends Nate and Taryn (and their little daughter Brooklyn, 6 weeks old and adorable) came with us. We ate lunch at the same place as last time, SMASH Burger. Mmmm...so delicious, the best burgers I've ever tasted.
In the afternoon we walked around the mall, and Phoenix was getting a lot of attention...he decided he didn't want to sit in the stroller, but he wanted to help me push it. So as I pushed the stroller, he walked right below me and helped push by holding onto the basket at the bottom of the stroller and pushed as if it were his own little handle. It was hilarious to see my little boy walking so fast and thinking he was the one pushing the stroller! What a hard little worker, what a Smith! I'm working on posting the video of him doing this.
We went to Brookstone, and they sell these new things called a Frog-O-Spheres. I might be amazed by not much at all, but these things are amazing! It's a little square aquarium with 2 frogs, a snail, live gravel, and bamboo. It's a mini eco-system. You feed the frogs twice a week and only have to change the water 2 times a year. The snail eats up all the waste, like the friendly janitor of the place, and the live gravel helps converts excess food and water into something the bamboo plant can use to release oxygen, which helps the frogs and snail thrive. And the whole thing lasts for 2-4 years! I was amazed, but alas, I didn't buy my own Frog-O-Sphere because it would have had to sit in the hot car for a few hours...not good for Mr. and Mrs. Frog. But next time I get the chance, I'm buying one of those awesome things!
Only 2 more weeks until we get to to go Mesquite and visit our family! It's been too long, almost 3 months, since we've seen everyone. We are so looking forward to this trip. After so much moving, change, and hard work, it will feel great to rest for a week and spend time with what's familiar to us- family.
In the afternoon we walked around the mall, and Phoenix was getting a lot of attention...he decided he didn't want to sit in the stroller, but he wanted to help me push it. So as I pushed the stroller, he walked right below me and helped push by holding onto the basket at the bottom of the stroller and pushed as if it were his own little handle. It was hilarious to see my little boy walking so fast and thinking he was the one pushing the stroller! What a hard little worker, what a Smith! I'm working on posting the video of him doing this.
We went to Brookstone, and they sell these new things called a Frog-O-Spheres. I might be amazed by not much at all, but these things are amazing! It's a little square aquarium with 2 frogs, a snail, live gravel, and bamboo. It's a mini eco-system. You feed the frogs twice a week and only have to change the water 2 times a year. The snail eats up all the waste, like the friendly janitor of the place, and the live gravel helps converts excess food and water into something the bamboo plant can use to release oxygen, which helps the frogs and snail thrive. And the whole thing lasts for 2-4 years! I was amazed, but alas, I didn't buy my own Frog-O-Sphere because it would have had to sit in the hot car for a few hours...not good for Mr. and Mrs. Frog. But next time I get the chance, I'm buying one of those awesome things!
Only 2 more weeks until we get to to go Mesquite and visit our family! It's been too long, almost 3 months, since we've seen everyone. We are so looking forward to this trip. After so much moving, change, and hard work, it will feel great to rest for a week and spend time with what's familiar to us- family.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Dallas Cowboys
Sunday was a lot of fun. We went to visit Isaac's friend from college, Pat McQuistan (#77), in San Antonio for the Dallas Cowboys training camp. It was so much fun! We got to watch them practice and met a few of the players. I talked to Jason Witten's wife and mother, since Phoenix was playing with Witten's little boys, who are so adorable. We also got to spend time on the River Walk, see the Alamo, and we ate dinner at a DELICIOUS Mexican restaurant. We got some pictures of Felix Jones, which Isaac was excited about, and we saw Tony Romo. I was starstruck! We are planning on going to the Cowboys vs. Giants game in September. I am PSYCHED because the Giants are my favorite team. Ya-hoo!
I am so proud of Phoenix lately. He is such a good boy. When he was a baby, Isaac and I struggled with him so much. It has always seemed like Phoenix doesn't do anything the way the books or doctors say he should. But I've learned what it means to be a mother and how to trust my instincts. Thank goodness, because for months I stressed over doing things the "right" way and worrying about Phoenix being "normal." Now I just set our own routine and it works great for us. Phoenix travels well, which is a blessing since we are either in the car or airplane every couple weeks it seems.
Isaac is on the home stretch, so close to meeting his sales goal for the summer. Who knows, maybe we'll get to come home early...wherever home is?
I am so proud of Phoenix lately. He is such a good boy. When he was a baby, Isaac and I struggled with him so much. It has always seemed like Phoenix doesn't do anything the way the books or doctors say he should. But I've learned what it means to be a mother and how to trust my instincts. Thank goodness, because for months I stressed over doing things the "right" way and worrying about Phoenix being "normal." Now I just set our own routine and it works great for us. Phoenix travels well, which is a blessing since we are either in the car or airplane every couple weeks it seems.
Isaac is on the home stretch, so close to meeting his sales goal for the summer. Who knows, maybe we'll get to come home early...wherever home is?
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Loving Laredo
We are here in Laredo, and we love it. Very hot, very busy, a lot different than Springfield was. The best part about Isaac's job right now is that we get to experience so many different cities, and we are both learning so many great lessons we would not have been able to learn otherwise. God is great!
I just got back from visiting my family in Georgetown, and that was really awesome. I got to visit their church, Calvary Chapel Georgetown. The pastor is awesome, the sermon was convicting, and the fellowship is so warm and welcoming. My family is very blessed to be able to go to church there. Also I was able to spend some time with my family in Austin, where my uncle is very sick. It was neat to pray over him and see God working in their home while we were there.
Isaac works a 12 today, from 9:00 AM- 9:00 PM. I'll hang out at home a lot, since it is so HOT outside, and maybe spend some time with my friend, Taryn. Her little girl Brooklyn is just 5 weeks old and she is adorable! Tomorrow, Isaac is taking me and Phoenix to San Antonio to watch the Dallas Cowboys practice. He is friends with one of the players, and we are excited. We might also go to Sea World, I LOVE the dolphins! I keep asking the Lord if there's going to be dolphins in heaven. I would sure love that!
I just got back from visiting my family in Georgetown, and that was really awesome. I got to visit their church, Calvary Chapel Georgetown. The pastor is awesome, the sermon was convicting, and the fellowship is so warm and welcoming. My family is very blessed to be able to go to church there. Also I was able to spend some time with my family in Austin, where my uncle is very sick. It was neat to pray over him and see God working in their home while we were there.
Isaac works a 12 today, from 9:00 AM- 9:00 PM. I'll hang out at home a lot, since it is so HOT outside, and maybe spend some time with my friend, Taryn. Her little girl Brooklyn is just 5 weeks old and she is adorable! Tomorrow, Isaac is taking me and Phoenix to San Antonio to watch the Dallas Cowboys practice. He is friends with one of the players, and we are excited. We might also go to Sea World, I LOVE the dolphins! I keep asking the Lord if there's going to be dolphins in heaven. I would sure love that!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Thankful, Grateful, Joyful
THANKFUL right now for more than I can possibly write. We finally got a car, praise the Lord! We are all healthy, happy, safe, free, and provided for.
GRATEFUL for the opportunity to move to a new place this weekend! Laredo, Texas, will be home to us soon. I am excited to become a part of a new church body, make a new apartment our home, and experience a new part of the country. I only wish I was 100% fluent with my Spanish, but at leats I know enough to carry on a conversation with a child!
JOYFUL...I have learned something over these past few months. Joy is not the same thing as happiness. Being happy seems to be the goal these days, but happiness is so shaky because it depends on your circumstances, which change from day to day. Who knows if you will have enough money next month, or if you will have reasons to be "happy?" But joy, true joy, comes from the Lord. It's being content with what you have and trusting God, because even at my lowest point, God NEVER abandoned me. Even at my lowest point, God revealed to me my true wealth, and showed me that I am richer than most of the world just by having a safe place to sleep and food to eat. JOY:
J- Jesus first,
O- Others second,
Y- Yourself last
Jesus promised in John 16:22, "I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy."
GRATEFUL for the opportunity to move to a new place this weekend! Laredo, Texas, will be home to us soon. I am excited to become a part of a new church body, make a new apartment our home, and experience a new part of the country. I only wish I was 100% fluent with my Spanish, but at leats I know enough to carry on a conversation with a child!
JOYFUL...I have learned something over these past few months. Joy is not the same thing as happiness. Being happy seems to be the goal these days, but happiness is so shaky because it depends on your circumstances, which change from day to day. Who knows if you will have enough money next month, or if you will have reasons to be "happy?" But joy, true joy, comes from the Lord. It's being content with what you have and trusting God, because even at my lowest point, God NEVER abandoned me. Even at my lowest point, God revealed to me my true wealth, and showed me that I am richer than most of the world just by having a safe place to sleep and food to eat. JOY:
J- Jesus first,
O- Others second,
Y- Yourself last
Jesus promised in John 16:22, "I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy."
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Cabin Fever!
You guessed it, I am still without a car! This week Isaac and I have been on the hunt for a car we can afford to pay cash for, since nobody seems to want to loan us any money! I have reached the end of my no-car rope. I thought it was something I could live without, but not in this century. I need the freedom to go to the store or take my son to the park, anything to get out everyday! We get EXTREME CABIN FEVER. I am extremely grateful to God that this is my biggest problem in life right now. Even in the middle of my boredom and loneliness, the Lord still provides me each day with many, many, many blessings.
Phoenix is my little man, getting so big and so playful. But also very stubborn, just like his Daddy. I posted a picture of him from when he was a newborn, and then one of him today. He has changed so much! I love him more and more as time passes. He seems to love me more and more too, and shows it by throwing tantrums, throwing food at me, and chucking his toys onto the floor in protest each day. What a little lovebug!
Phoenix is my little man, getting so big and so playful. But also very stubborn, just like his Daddy. I posted a picture of him from when he was a newborn, and then one of him today. He has changed so much! I love him more and more as time passes. He seems to love me more and more too, and shows it by throwing tantrums, throwing food at me, and chucking his toys onto the floor in protest each day. What a little lovebug!
Friday, June 26, 2009
Pool, Pool, Pool!
We spend A LOT of time at the pool! Phoenix loves the water now, it took a few times to get him used to it (even bath time is becoming fun for him now). Plus it's so hot outside and most days I feel our options are A) Play at home in our apartment, which is only fun for a while, or B) Go swimming! This week Isaac got to go to work later than usual so we took advantage of our RARE time together and took Phoenix for a shorty but very fun swim. It was the first time he got to play in the pool with Daddy and his first time in his turtle floatie!
Added bonus: we found a small frog in the water for Phoenix to play with. I expected him to be afraid, with all the jumping, but I guess he is a Smith boy, just like his Daddy. Although, truth be told, I had more fun with the frog than my son did. I let him sit on my shoulder or in my hand, and he seemed to enjoy that. I called him Mr. Frog. The Pool Cleaner Guy said to me, "It doesn't take much to amuse you, does it?" I replied, "No, that's why I married my husband!" Ha ha ha.
Added bonus: we found a small frog in the water for Phoenix to play with. I expected him to be afraid, with all the jumping, but I guess he is a Smith boy, just like his Daddy. Although, truth be told, I had more fun with the frog than my son did. I let him sit on my shoulder or in my hand, and he seemed to enjoy that. I called him Mr. Frog. The Pool Cleaner Guy said to me, "It doesn't take much to amuse you, does it?" I replied, "No, that's why I married my husband!" Ha ha ha.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Fun in Georgetown
Georgetown, Texas, is a very beautiful, charming city. My parents and siblings are so blessed to live there. It is very family-oriented ,the people are nice, the houses are quaint and beautiful, and the scenery is awesome. I really enjoyed my visit, especially when we went to the Farmer's Market and also when we visited an antique store downtown. I found a new love: antique furniture. It is just my style, not too pricey, and usually great quality. Someday if God blesses us with a house to live in again, I would love to start adding antique furniture to the mix.
We spent a lot of time at the pool. The humidity in Texas and in Missouri is like...it's like...a sauna or a steam room! You walk outside to get the mail for 2 minutes and you come home sweating. But it's been nice for my curly hair!
We spent a lot of time at the pool. The humidity in Texas and in Missouri is like...it's like...a sauna or a steam room! You walk outside to get the mail for 2 minutes and you come home sweating. But it's been nice for my curly hair!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Airplane Adventure!
The airport/airplane experience was quite interesting! It was really hard to watch my hubby walk away from me in the Springfield airport, and the airport security had to "pat" me down because I brought liquids for Phoenix to drink. I guess they thought I was smuggling some goods...
The first flight was weird because the airplane was tiny, tiny, tiny. Luckily Phoenix slept most of the flight, after he wrestled me and went down squirming! I was eager to get off that plane and get back on to the next one that would take us to Austin. ..BUT NO! We had a super long delay of almost 2 hours because of bad weather in New York, so Phoenix and I explored the Dallas airport. He loves to watch people pass by and flirt with anyone who will give him attention.
A few messy diapers and jars of baby food later, we finally got onto our final flight...only to hear the captain announce "It's going to be another 20 minutes before take-off, folks..." UGH! At this point Phoenix has missed his afternoon nap, wriggled in the airport for 2 whole hours, and we are squished between some very conservative people who didn't seem to enjoy my son's hands slapping their faces.
So we walled to the back of the airplane where- PRAISE GOD!- there was an entire row with nobody sitting there. So Phoenix had room to roll and grunt and play and it was wonderful. 32 minutes after take-off, we arrived to see Grandpa Ortiz! Let the fun begin!
The first flight was weird because the airplane was tiny, tiny, tiny. Luckily Phoenix slept most of the flight, after he wrestled me and went down squirming! I was eager to get off that plane and get back on to the next one that would take us to Austin. ..BUT NO! We had a super long delay of almost 2 hours because of bad weather in New York, so Phoenix and I explored the Dallas airport. He loves to watch people pass by and flirt with anyone who will give him attention.
A few messy diapers and jars of baby food later, we finally got onto our final flight...only to hear the captain announce "It's going to be another 20 minutes before take-off, folks..." UGH! At this point Phoenix has missed his afternoon nap, wriggled in the airport for 2 whole hours, and we are squished between some very conservative people who didn't seem to enjoy my son's hands slapping their faces.
So we walled to the back of the airplane where- PRAISE GOD!- there was an entire row with nobody sitting there. So Phoenix had room to roll and grunt and play and it was wonderful. 32 minutes after take-off, we arrived to see Grandpa Ortiz! Let the fun begin!
Monday, June 8, 2009
What a Season
Tomorrow Phoenix and I go to Georgetown, Texas, to visit Grandma and Grandpa Ortiz. I am nervous for the flight alone without my hubby, but I've been praying about it for a week. I trust in the Lord to provide the way!
Isaac got a haircut today, and it's short. I told him it's like high school all over again! We both loved his long hair but he has gotten tired of "doing his hair" every morning. Now he doesn't need a brush or hairspray anymore!
Missouri has been such a fun adventure so far. We are enjoying the cows that graze in a huge meadow right outside our back porch. The weather is nice, and of course it's humid but we like it. As Isaac says, it's hot in St. George and it's hot here, but at least here it's beautiful. And it is, lots of trees and green pastures. Perfect place for nature people like we are. I have a lot more time now that we don't have a TV to read and reflect. I am growing closer to the Lord and to my husband and little boy. This is a season of our lives we will remember for a long time.
Isaac got a haircut today, and it's short. I told him it's like high school all over again! We both loved his long hair but he has gotten tired of "doing his hair" every morning. Now he doesn't need a brush or hairspray anymore!
Missouri has been such a fun adventure so far. We are enjoying the cows that graze in a huge meadow right outside our back porch. The weather is nice, and of course it's humid but we like it. As Isaac says, it's hot in St. George and it's hot here, but at least here it's beautiful. And it is, lots of trees and green pastures. Perfect place for nature people like we are. I have a lot more time now that we don't have a TV to read and reflect. I am growing closer to the Lord and to my husband and little boy. This is a season of our lives we will remember for a long time.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
From Trial to Joy
Hello all. We are flying out to Missouri on Friday, May 29th. We are so excited! At first, the thought of selling everything and starting all over someplace new seemed to hard to bear. But now that everything is sold, I feel free and happy! I don't know what my future holds, but I trust in the Lord and in my husband. I can't wait to see what God has in store for us this summer.
This Memorial Day we will be partying with my family, as a last HURRAH before we leave. Yesterday was fun, we spent the day at Sand Hollow Reservoir. Phoenix played in the sand for the first time! And once we got home there were a ton of bunny rabbits running around the neighborhood, so with the help of our dogs, we wrangled in 3 of them. They are in our backyard for the time being!
What an adventure life is. God is good and life is good! Don't let anything or anyone tell you different. You just have to see things from the eternal perspective: "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11...It is exciting to see the Word of God come to life in my own experiences!
This Memorial Day we will be partying with my family, as a last HURRAH before we leave. Yesterday was fun, we spent the day at Sand Hollow Reservoir. Phoenix played in the sand for the first time! And once we got home there were a ton of bunny rabbits running around the neighborhood, so with the help of our dogs, we wrangled in 3 of them. They are in our backyard for the time being!
What an adventure life is. God is good and life is good! Don't let anything or anyone tell you different. You just have to see things from the eternal perspective: "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11...It is exciting to see the Word of God come to life in my own experiences!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
And The Answer Is...
A. Missouri! We are moving to Springfield, Missouri, in the middle of June. We'll be living there for the summer, until the end of August. Isaac has a great summer job opportunity there, and I am really excited for us to experience this together. It will be a great learning experience, and who knows? Maybe I'll get to meet Bart Simpson!
When summer is over, we aren't sure what life will bring. For now, we are travelling gypsies!
When summer is over, we aren't sure what life will bring. For now, we are travelling gypsies!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Missouri? Salt Lake City? Mesquite?
Let's play a multiple choice game!
We are moving at the end of this month. The Question is, will we be moving to...
A. Springfield, Missouri. Isaac has a summer job opportunity there, and despite the awful humidity, we would be living closer to my family in Texas. Plus it would be a fun experience.
B. Salt Lake City, Utah. Isaac could also work in Northern Utah, promoting and establishing one of his companies there. Then I would get to see my old friends!
C. Mesquite, Nevada. With our lease up, we may move in with my in-laws to save money and wait for our next move. Phoenix would get to spend a lot of time with his Mesquite family that so adores him.
So what do you think the answer is? Let me know...=)
We are moving at the end of this month. The Question is, will we be moving to...
A. Springfield, Missouri. Isaac has a summer job opportunity there, and despite the awful humidity, we would be living closer to my family in Texas. Plus it would be a fun experience.
B. Salt Lake City, Utah. Isaac could also work in Northern Utah, promoting and establishing one of his companies there. Then I would get to see my old friends!
C. Mesquite, Nevada. With our lease up, we may move in with my in-laws to save money and wait for our next move. Phoenix would get to spend a lot of time with his Mesquite family that so adores him.
So what do you think the answer is? Let me know...=)
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
My Cup Runneth Over
Wow, what a week this has been! Mother's Day was a lot of fun. We went to Mesquite and ate a delicious meal at Bubba and Wendy's. Phoenix totally LOVES his grandma and grandpa Smith, so he had so much fun riding on grandpa's shoulders, eating strawberries from Grandma's garden, and playing with his cousins, Mattix and Diesel. It was a fun, relaxing day.
At home, things are pretty good. Isaac and I are selling a lot of our things at a garage sale this weekend, so that will be interesting! And Isaac is going to an away football game on Saturday, let's hope the Blitz CRUSH 'EM! We didn't win our last 2 games...the weather in St. George is great, really sunny and warm. Phoenix is growing beautifully, and except for the fact that he seems to be resisting solid foods and still wakes up 2-3 times at night to eat, everything is going smoothly. He will be 9 months old on May 24th.
Isaac and I have discussed having another baby, and if I were to get pregnant we would be happy, but the time doesn't feel right to start intentionally trying. Then again, how does anyone know when the time is right? We are blessed to enjoy great health, a thriving baby boy (although a very challenging and aggressive little boy!), a loving marriage, great food and clean drinking water, a place to lay our heads, freedom to worship, faith in the ALMIGHTY God, and family that loves us. We are truly rich, indeed. My cup runneth over.
At home, things are pretty good. Isaac and I are selling a lot of our things at a garage sale this weekend, so that will be interesting! And Isaac is going to an away football game on Saturday, let's hope the Blitz CRUSH 'EM! We didn't win our last 2 games...the weather in St. George is great, really sunny and warm. Phoenix is growing beautifully, and except for the fact that he seems to be resisting solid foods and still wakes up 2-3 times at night to eat, everything is going smoothly. He will be 9 months old on May 24th.
Isaac and I have discussed having another baby, and if I were to get pregnant we would be happy, but the time doesn't feel right to start intentionally trying. Then again, how does anyone know when the time is right? We are blessed to enjoy great health, a thriving baby boy (although a very challenging and aggressive little boy!), a loving marriage, great food and clean drinking water, a place to lay our heads, freedom to worship, faith in the ALMIGHTY God, and family that loves us. We are truly rich, indeed. My cup runneth over.
Friday, March 20, 2009
It's been awhile
Hello all! It's been awhile since I've written. Life has been pretty smooth, no major bumps or hurdles to cross. Phoenix is 7 months old now, and he has his 2 bottom teeth and his two top teeth! Teething was not so bad. I expected sleepless nights and lots of screaming but we hardly noticed until one day, we saw the teeth! The bottoms came in a couple weeks before the tops. He looks so cute!
Isaac is still working like crazy with the Blitz football team and his business. We are both still doing well on our Life Change (it's not a diet since it's how we'll eat from now on). We get to eat our Free Meal this weekend, I'm dreaming of fries and milkshakes! We are both realizing the time may soon be approaching for me to have another baby. We're praying about it and don't want to rush anything. But the plan is to try for Baby Number 2 around the end of this year. We'll see what God has in store for us!
I hope everyone is doing great. Life is good. =)
Isaac is still working like crazy with the Blitz football team and his business. We are both still doing well on our Life Change (it's not a diet since it's how we'll eat from now on). We get to eat our Free Meal this weekend, I'm dreaming of fries and milkshakes! We are both realizing the time may soon be approaching for me to have another baby. We're praying about it and don't want to rush anything. But the plan is to try for Baby Number 2 around the end of this year. We'll see what God has in store for us!
I hope everyone is doing great. Life is good. =)
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Texas, here we come!
Only 2 more days until we fly to Texas! I talk about this a lot, but it's because I miss my little brother and sisters so much. How many 22 year old women have a 5 month old son, and also 3 younger siblings, ages 14, 7, and 3 months? I miss those little kids very much!
We FINALLY found a new car. Isaac and I have been trying to get rid of both our cars and trade them in for a new one. We started looking around at dealerships, and after 6 days of exhaustion, we bought our car on Saturday afternoon. It's a 2006 Jeep Commander, really nice and it is just what we need. We wanted to get a Toyota SUV, but St. George is a small town and it was impossible to find here! Now we have just one car and our payments stayed the same- whew!
My sister-in-law Chelsey is having a baby this Wednesday, and I am so excited because it's the first baby girl in the Smith family! Also, my other sister-in-law Laura is a couple months pregnant and is sick as a dog- keep her in your prayers! She wasn't this sick with her boys, so she's thinking it's a girl. The Smith men seem to only make boys, so for any of us wives to have a girl, it's very exciting.
I hope you are all doing well. Stay grateful for what you have and live life for what's important. 1 Timothy 6:6 in the Bible says "Godliness with contentment is great gain." It's not the material things in life that fill our hearts and bring us the most joy, and when we die, we can't take any of it with us anyway! Talk to you all when we get back from the Lone Star State.
We FINALLY found a new car. Isaac and I have been trying to get rid of both our cars and trade them in for a new one. We started looking around at dealerships, and after 6 days of exhaustion, we bought our car on Saturday afternoon. It's a 2006 Jeep Commander, really nice and it is just what we need. We wanted to get a Toyota SUV, but St. George is a small town and it was impossible to find here! Now we have just one car and our payments stayed the same- whew!
My sister-in-law Chelsey is having a baby this Wednesday, and I am so excited because it's the first baby girl in the Smith family! Also, my other sister-in-law Laura is a couple months pregnant and is sick as a dog- keep her in your prayers! She wasn't this sick with her boys, so she's thinking it's a girl. The Smith men seem to only make boys, so for any of us wives to have a girl, it's very exciting.
I hope you are all doing well. Stay grateful for what you have and live life for what's important. 1 Timothy 6:6 in the Bible says "Godliness with contentment is great gain." It's not the material things in life that fill our hearts and bring us the most joy, and when we die, we can't take any of it with us anyway! Talk to you all when we get back from the Lone Star State.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
High Chair Frustration, Saucer Sensation
Isaac and his brother Josh went to Idaho yesterday morning for a football league meeting. They're on the road back home right now and he should be here any minute. Thank goodness, I miss my husband! I had to sleep alone last night and that's never fun for me.
Today Phoenix and I went out for a drive and I decided to stop and look for a high chair, since he's eating food often enough to need one now. We picked out a high chair together (well, Phoenix didn't really say much but he was there with me!) and we also got what I call a saucer- it's the thing babies sit in and can spin around with lots of toys to play with. It's like a walker without wheels, and this one is bouncy so he can jump. While Phoenix took his afternoon nap, I attempted to assemble his high chair and saucer. Boy, was I wishing Isaac was home to do it for me! He usually puts together this kind of stuff, and I didn't think there would be so many little screws and plastic pieces to put together. It took a lot longer than I thought it would, and I had to pray for patience throughout the process (literally). In the end, I was proud of myself for figuring it out on my own and I was happy to have something to do, since Isaac wasn't home to goof around with me (we love to play hide-and-seek. I am the best hider!).
Right now Phoenix is sleeping and I'll be hitting the hay after I finish writing this. I hope everyone reading this is doing well, and since I think most of you reading this also have a new baby, I hope motherhood is as great of a blessing to you as it is to me.
Today Phoenix and I went out for a drive and I decided to stop and look for a high chair, since he's eating food often enough to need one now. We picked out a high chair together (well, Phoenix didn't really say much but he was there with me!) and we also got what I call a saucer- it's the thing babies sit in and can spin around with lots of toys to play with. It's like a walker without wheels, and this one is bouncy so he can jump. While Phoenix took his afternoon nap, I attempted to assemble his high chair and saucer. Boy, was I wishing Isaac was home to do it for me! He usually puts together this kind of stuff, and I didn't think there would be so many little screws and plastic pieces to put together. It took a lot longer than I thought it would, and I had to pray for patience throughout the process (literally). In the end, I was proud of myself for figuring it out on my own and I was happy to have something to do, since Isaac wasn't home to goof around with me (we love to play hide-and-seek. I am the best hider!).
Right now Phoenix is sleeping and I'll be hitting the hay after I finish writing this. I hope everyone reading this is doing well, and since I think most of you reading this also have a new baby, I hope motherhood is as great of a blessing to you as it is to me.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Phoenix is growing up
What a week this has been! Phoenix is getting older, and that means a lot of great things are happening!
First, he has been sleeping through the night! For about a week now, he wakes up only once a night or not at all, and sleeps for at least 6 hours straight, sometimes more. Last night he went to sleep at 11:00 PM, and he's just now waking up at 7:30 AM. Yes!!! I am finally getting my sleep! Also, he is eating solids much better now. Two meals a day, one vegetable meal and one fruit meal. He's loving it all, so am I!
We do put him down to sleep kind-of late for a baby, but it seems to work for him. He falls right asleep and sleeps much better than if we put him down a couple hours too early. We definitely haven't been doing what the books tell us to do. Do we nurse him to sleep? Yes. Do we pick him up if he cries? Usually. I know I should feel like a slave to my child, but compared to how bad it was when he was a newborn, I feel a lot of freedom as a mother. Yes, I have to be prepared to take care of my son 24/7, but it's worth it. I spend nights waking up at all odd hours and days changing endless diapers and wiping off spit-up from everywhere in the house, but I get a healthy, strong, happy, growing baby boy. It's a pretty fair trade-off!
In this time of economic hardship and struggle for so many people, I will count my blessings and stay positive about life. Philippians 2: 14 says, "Do everything without complaining or arguing." That's great advice for me.
First, he has been sleeping through the night! For about a week now, he wakes up only once a night or not at all, and sleeps for at least 6 hours straight, sometimes more. Last night he went to sleep at 11:00 PM, and he's just now waking up at 7:30 AM. Yes!!! I am finally getting my sleep! Also, he is eating solids much better now. Two meals a day, one vegetable meal and one fruit meal. He's loving it all, so am I!
We do put him down to sleep kind-of late for a baby, but it seems to work for him. He falls right asleep and sleeps much better than if we put him down a couple hours too early. We definitely haven't been doing what the books tell us to do. Do we nurse him to sleep? Yes. Do we pick him up if he cries? Usually. I know I should feel like a slave to my child, but compared to how bad it was when he was a newborn, I feel a lot of freedom as a mother. Yes, I have to be prepared to take care of my son 24/7, but it's worth it. I spend nights waking up at all odd hours and days changing endless diapers and wiping off spit-up from everywhere in the house, but I get a healthy, strong, happy, growing baby boy. It's a pretty fair trade-off!
In this time of economic hardship and struggle for so many people, I will count my blessings and stay positive about life. Philippians 2: 14 says, "Do everything without complaining or arguing." That's great advice for me.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Potluck Dinner Tonight
Today has been a great day so far. We went to church and checked Phoenix in to the nursery, holding our breath that he would be a good boy for his teachers. And he was! It was amazing, for the first Sunday since he was born, we got to enjoy the entire church service and didn't have to leave early. Yeah!
We are going back to church tonight for a potluck dinner. Mmmm...sounds yummy. Isaac and I have totally changed the way we eat- we've switched to buying mostly organic food, and our menu consists of lean protein, fresh fruits and vegetables, protein shakes, and occasional dairy and wheat carbs. We've been eating like this for 2 months now, and it has made a huge difference. We have more energy, we feel so much better, and we have each lost a lot of weight. It was so difficult at first- I wanted crackers, bread, ice cream, butter!- but now it has become our new way of life.
Isaac is very strict with what he eats-absolutely NO dessert and VERY little carbs, if any. I am a little more relaxed-I eat super healthy at home, but we go out to eat once a week, and I call this my "Free Meal", where I can splurge a little on my meal and order a dessert. I am so proud of Isaac- he always orders grilled chicken or fish with vegetables, or a salad with no dressing.
We are going to visit my family in Texas on February 10th, and we made a pact not to eat out at all until then, since recently I've been having more than one "Free Meal" a week. This is a big stretch for me, because I love to go to restaurants! Only 23 more days of not eating out...I can do this!
Well, Phoenix is getting so big. He's becoming a little boy, not a baby. When I look at him, I can hardly believe he lived inside of my belly less than 5 months ago. It is so amazing to look at him and think "WOW, with the Lord's and Isaac's help, I made this. I grew this little person inside of me. WOW!" God is so awesome.
We are going back to church tonight for a potluck dinner. Mmmm...sounds yummy. Isaac and I have totally changed the way we eat- we've switched to buying mostly organic food, and our menu consists of lean protein, fresh fruits and vegetables, protein shakes, and occasional dairy and wheat carbs. We've been eating like this for 2 months now, and it has made a huge difference. We have more energy, we feel so much better, and we have each lost a lot of weight. It was so difficult at first- I wanted crackers, bread, ice cream, butter!- but now it has become our new way of life.
Isaac is very strict with what he eats-absolutely NO dessert and VERY little carbs, if any. I am a little more relaxed-I eat super healthy at home, but we go out to eat once a week, and I call this my "Free Meal", where I can splurge a little on my meal and order a dessert. I am so proud of Isaac- he always orders grilled chicken or fish with vegetables, or a salad with no dressing.
We are going to visit my family in Texas on February 10th, and we made a pact not to eat out at all until then, since recently I've been having more than one "Free Meal" a week. This is a big stretch for me, because I love to go to restaurants! Only 23 more days of not eating out...I can do this!
Well, Phoenix is getting so big. He's becoming a little boy, not a baby. When I look at him, I can hardly believe he lived inside of my belly less than 5 months ago. It is so amazing to look at him and think "WOW, with the Lord's and Isaac's help, I made this. I grew this little person inside of me. WOW!" God is so awesome.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Happy Sunday, Rest Day
Ahhh...Sunday is my favorite day of the week. I wake up early to pray and spend time in my Bible, and the spiritual refreshment I get carries on into our 9:00 AM Church service. We attend Calvary Chapel of Saint George, which is a non-denomenational church based on the teachings of the Bible. I really enjoyed the songs we got to sing today, but little Phoenix has been sick lately and he was so fussy that we left church a little early and didn't quite catch the end of our Pastor's message on Acts Chapter 2 (we wanted to check him in to the nursery but he was so cranky!). In fact, he's crying right now so I better hurry!
I hope all of my family and friends are counting their blessings in life and thanking the Lord for His abundant provision in our lives. Life can be difficult sometimes. Jesus said in John 16:33, "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." The Savior didn't say we might have trouble, but he said we will. That's just part of living in such a broken world. Just know that you can do all things through Christ who gives you strength, and that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him. I hope you're all enjoying your Sunday, which is my day to rest and re-charge for the busy week ahead. I gain wisdom from reading God's word, I gain peace from my quiet times of prayer, I gain love from the Lord to share with those I love.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Happy New Year 2009!
Happy New Year everyone! I am so excited for this year. It's going to bring a lot of fun surprises and changes. Isaac's football season for the Blitz starts in February and runs until mid-summer, so that's going to be a busy time for us. He's really excited to start playing football again. And to all of my friends in Salt Lake City, a lot of Isaac's football games will be in Salt Lake, so I will get to visit you all soon and introduce you to Phoenix. YEAH!
As for me, I've just been enjoying my new role as a stay-at-home mom. Phoenix is four months and 2 weeks old now, and boy is he getting big! He can do so many new things, like roll over, clap his hands, hold his toys on his own, and we are starting to feed him solids. He still seems to prefer his Mommy's milk, though. =) We have him sleeping in his own room now, which was a very hard adjustment at first but he is doing very well with it. He still wakes up a couple times a night to eat but he definitely sleeps better in his own room.
Being a mom is so wonderful. It was hard at first, I didn't know what I had gotten myself into! But I have adjusted to this new life and I absolutely love it. I am so thankful that the Lord has called me to be a wife and mother. It's the hardest job in the world, but it also pays the best. =)
As for me, I've just been enjoying my new role as a stay-at-home mom. Phoenix is four months and 2 weeks old now, and boy is he getting big! He can do so many new things, like roll over, clap his hands, hold his toys on his own, and we are starting to feed him solids. He still seems to prefer his Mommy's milk, though. =) We have him sleeping in his own room now, which was a very hard adjustment at first but he is doing very well with it. He still wakes up a couple times a night to eat but he definitely sleeps better in his own room.
Being a mom is so wonderful. It was hard at first, I didn't know what I had gotten myself into! But I have adjusted to this new life and I absolutely love it. I am so thankful that the Lord has called me to be a wife and mother. It's the hardest job in the world, but it also pays the best. =)
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Christmas 2009
Road Trip
About Me
Enjoy the Tunes
Ike and Jess
Bath time
Phoenix loves his bath
What a cutie
Look at that precious smile!
Family Time
Laughing and playing
Phoenix and Max
Play time
What's on Daddy's head?
pretty flowers in our backyard
Mommy and Me
Here's my cute boy!
Mom and baby in the Jeep
Our new-to-us car
I love my new high chair!
Wake Up Time
I slept through the night!
Just hanging out
What a cute smirk!
Smith Family
Spending time out in the Nevada desert
Sleepy baby
He sleeps a lot, huh?
Smith, Party of 5
Jess, Isaac, PHX, Max, and Jack
Wake up time!
Funny bath!
Mmm....blueberries!
Laughing with Daddy
I drink my sippy all by myself!
The View From the Porch
Phoenix and Daddy with one of the rabbits
Just goin' for a walk
Mom and Phoenix
My two guys, the loves of my life
Breakfast with Daddy is his favorite thing now
Phoenix playing with Brooklyn, our friends' daughter, in Arizona
Lily, my adorable sister
Loving his toy mower
Climbing into the laundry basket
Max was licking his hair, which made it crazier than usual.
I have been meaning to teach him how to stack these things up like this...
but then one night he figured it out all on his own!
Getting ready for church. I could not tame his hair, just like Isaac's!
Admiring his church clothes.
Like father, like son. They are watching Monster Trucks on youtube. They did this ALL MORNING. :)
We call these his Ninja Jammies. Isaac got them at a Dollar Store in California.
Playing in the sandbox, he loves to get dirty. What a boy!
Phoenix loves to take rides on Max's back
Being goofy
Our kitchen
Isaac made our headboard from barn wood
Phoenix in Mommy's tummy
My big boy!
Happy 24th to Isaac
Laughing after bath time
The whole family at church
Bath time with Aunt Lily
Phoenix was a little wiggly...
Us before I got pregnant
We miss Max!
We miss Jack too!
Almost a year old!
Daddy and phx in the pool
mr. frog
Phoenix loves swimming with Mommy
so much fun!
My hubby's new haircut!
The last shot of Isaac's long hair...
He loves the porch
Mommy and Phoenix
Cuddle time
